Some of my english poems written years ago

Несколько стихов на английском моих, я уже не пишу, как-то в жизни мне здесь уже вообще ничего не интересно. Decision. In the dark of a night comes mysterious light. And the pain like the rain hits the heart, all in vain! In the dream comes a scream, And the way is too long And the soul is strong. But the chains of life grip your body too tight And the days - all the same, But the soul wants fame. But instead you are locked And the life loses sense And the one who is mocked lives a life of pretence. In the Garden of Eden the solution is hidden. And decision is wrong and the way is too long. In the dark of a night comes the breeze and the tide And mysterious night Makes you feeling all right. And the vision of collision Helps to make a decision. Memories. The life, my friend, has no sense, Betray me not with your pretence. Come, talk to me Enjoy my presence Look at this giant - deep blue sea, That squirrel crawled on oak tree, The beach is still in memory. That evening walk, That strange talk. The sun burns skin, You think of sin. The wind that whispers in your ear, The melody that I still hear. The heart that breaks And soul wakes. The ship and dolphins - so near, And waves that foam like a beer All this will now disappear The memories were so clear. Feelings What makes me feel and brings me thrill, It makes me chill, It's making ill and feeling sill. Again thrill... I feel too much to get in touch, I'd like to stay, I'd like to go, I'd like to meet what I don't know, I'd like a threat that I can't get, The way I feel is making ill, I can not stand your touching hand, I can't pretend... Nobody knows that feeling grows, You don't care of my dispair, And bother even not a bit of love and passion that I need, The cold creeps into my heart, The hope dies with every start, The dream is so far away And in your heart I can not stay. Too blind to see... You don't know what kind of person I am, You never looked deep enough behind the cover, Or is it you are too blind to see The beauty of spirit I have in me. Or is it you don't understand the way I am, Or you never tried to, never put an effort to. Or is it that the materialism of this world Got in every pore of your skin and spoiled you? What can I do to make you see The beauty of spirit I have in me, Love and kindness I can give, I tried always to forgive... But I guess it won't help to alter you cruel self. Money is all that matters to you. Is there something more I can do? I had a dream, you ruined it I had wings, you cut it I scream in a sleep because of you I need to shut the door behind you Forever to shut it, shut it, shut it. Money is all that matters to you. Is there something more I can do? You are so proud of your achievements But what good did you do for this world? Is there really someone you care for Without demanding from him some fulfillments of promises you don't keep yourself about this baby I wanted to have. Is there something more I can do To alter your cruel self? You are so blind to see The beauty of spirit I have in me. So years pass by and I can not say "Good-bye" Is it because you tied my hands Knowing there are no friends to help me To keep control over me, to tell me what I must do to become a copy of you. But you know one day, I am not there, I am away. You tried to ruin me, you almost succeeded, You tried to own me, you failed. You came with charm pretending to be what you are not to catch me in your net with your smiles and roses And then to tie it into the knot. But there is something you shouldn't forget... The beauty of spirit I have in me. But I guess it won't help to alter your cruel self. You wake me up at night and trying getting into a fight, you are preventing me from sleep, you tell me things the one that loves won't Next day you are again cute and cudly. But how can I forget the words That made me weep? You are so ugly! Money is all that matters to you. Is there something more I can do? You tried to teach me what to believe How to breath and how to live. You failed, now you want to throw me into the dirt, to make me even more hurt. Whatever help I asked you refused me in But you know I won't give in. This is materialism that got in ... In every pore of your skin. But one day you will see there is No one to torture, it won't be me Standing there, wishing for you to care, To wellcome you with kisses, I know you will miss it. Money is all that matters to you. Is there something more I can do? I came from very far away, I was alone on my way. I put a hope in you, you ruined it. I gave you love, what did you do with it? Your country is cold and rainy, the way you are, Racistic, declining, descriminating the stranger who came from far away and had the hope all his way You say you love me, what kind of love is it? Selfish, egoistic, not giving, Sure I won't miss it. And you know one day, I will be not there, I will be away, Because this is something you will never, Never take away from me, the beauty of spirit I have in me. Mystery You are a mystery to me, Secretly whispering from a tree. Love is wild and blind, Scream like a child, Kind and strong To you I belong. Daring, caring, In doubt and strange I long for a change. Being sweet and seductive, Turning cruel and destructive. This is what love has done to me, Making me to pay a fee. You are a mystery to me Can you ever set the fairy free? Give me the wings, Satisfy my dreams. Hoping it's not too late, Where is that secret gate? Now I cry and don't ask me why... Just stay there in my dream Like a bright sunshine beam A player. Oh boy, yes I know men of that kind, Stupid sex on your mind. Yes, you are more like a dream - perfect lover, sweet and mean. Handsome looks and smooth in speech, You treat all women like a bitch. Can't stand your charms or was I blind? Stupid dreams on my mind. Each woman is for you a pray, to catch her off-guard on the way. Talking of family and children... Hey, I was a stupid lamb and followed your way. Oh boy, I looked deep in your eyes and thought I saw the shining stars behind, But now I know men of that kind. You made me cry, you made me smile, You made me happy for a while, You called me "my sweet princess" and told "smile, baby, smile" You made me fly or was I blind? It's stupid sex on your mind. Now you are gone, in search of other pray, you don't call, not even saying "Hey". Not poet in heart, pretending one to be, You calculate your life, No, you were no good for me. Why was I so blind, You caught me off-guard, But now I know men of that kind. I think I loved you deep in heart. But now I'm also that kind, Just stupid sex on my mind. Dracula's Embrace. On my mind This wild vampire dream I scream and scream A beast so furious and hungry Blood-drinking creature with pray I hunt, You are vampire in my desire You are a demon in my heart and On my mind, everywhere you are, I see you. Is this a telepathic bond becoming strong? Sweet kisses, sitting under moon, The rain drops this afternoon, And even in this mud I see the blood Blood everywhere - in my wine, Blood rain, you call me and I feel your pain. The greave in heart becoming strong, You question where you belong. Cling-cling, and you are here no more It's Dracula knocking at your door! Don't be curious, the creature is furious And wait, don't go to that cemetary gate. Putting in the glass ice cube, Watching that video at youtube, This horror scene, vampire ball, It's like a drug, you pull the plug, Your notebook is still switched on And video is going on, Against will you are in film And it's not picture anymore, No, that's not picture anymore. You don't know where to run, to hide and now you are vampire's bride. You try to fight, to call for help And face to face you feel embrace From someone not from human race. You are vampire in my desire You are a demon in my heart, Blood-drinking creature with pray I hunt. False Friendship. If true or not - The judge is God And whatever you say Arrogance and prejudice Stand friendship in the way. You love yourself more Than anything else, Make women wait and hope Under the false pretence. You have a talent I must admit And you can even make a hit. You light the fire and want Someone you to admire, Then you say It was not meant that way, You bring confusion and delay. I might have shared some of your Thoughts and views anyway, But my moral values Do not fit to what you say. Illusion, confusion, delusion, no solution. You change your mind so often That I don't know if you ever mean what you say, I'm not the one to play, Just get out, get out of my way. Someone singing about love And not believing in falling in love, So every person wanting to find love And who follows his heart Sounds desperate for you Only because he is not As successful as you. I think you like that play, To show indifference in the first way. Then you show you care, But only on words, Then disappear and bring dispair, But I've grew out of this, Not untill you have proven this. Thinking women should fight for you like for that great prize, But I will be wise, No more false friends and feelings in disguise, You are far from paradise. The worst prison is a closed heart, That's what is keeping people apart. But I won't put any more trust in you, Because you do not understand what I do. You trust noone, Not even an open heart will help, As you already stamped me And claimed you know in which Category you will put me. And I don't care though you are wrong, Your approval is not needed, End of the song.