Coming to this site is like going to a huge party, meeting many wonderful people and making many wonderful friends. The worst part of finding success in your original goal is leaving behind all these wonderful friends and friendships. That must be the harsh and unpleasant aspect of showing up on the "Happy Couples and Best Wishes" forum. And when that happens, for me it will not be without tears. Tears of happiness; also tears of sadness at leaving behind many of those whom I have come to love and respect. Because you were not the special intended one for me, you are no less my friend. When I first came here, I knew I could not take all of you home, but I wish I could. You are each deserving of a rich and endless love. When I arrived to begin my search, the prospect of meeting so many special women was exciting and wonderful. Unfortunately, I did not think about saying good-bye to anyone and did not realize how difficult it would be, if the time ever came. When that time comes for me, it will be very, very difficult. Tom, I will miss even you, my friend. We have had some tough words but I still believe underneath you have a good heart; everyone has some rough edges. We all know you and still love you, my brother. Maybe there is a place for a new topic regarding this. If so, I would like to hear the thoughts of someone with some experience and understanding, for I have none; and I wish I did.