Hallo Rick! I do not know why, but I'm very sorry for you) How old is your lady? .. Although it probably does not matter. It's all your interpretation and it's very difficult to draw conclusions. But a few theses. If you do not have enough money, international relations are not for you. Because you need a thousand meetings, you understand. And there is no guarantee. But there are costs. This is reality. You're going against the wind. Yet. I'm sure - in fact you know the answers to all the questions. In your soul. We can always understand whether there is love or not. I think she's running away, and you're catching up. But we must go to meet each other. And else. I see sooo many obstacles, all is very difficult. Or you are the Problem-Men and every trifle worries you. Or is it too complicated woman. For you. If she is now in ok and does not show interest - just lets she go. Maybe she wants to go to America (that's why she does not let you go) and so on, but she does not want to be with you. I'm sorry I'm writing this. It's just an outside viewing. I have not read about her desire for you, you understand. This is a bad sign. I suggest you stop, take a break, do not pursue her more. Let her decide how she wants to live. She will find you. Forget about money, no way to return back them. Communicate with others. Look for a kind and calm person. I thought you are a good man, ready to sacrifice, give the last (even when you do not have much). Do not rush. And just let go of the situation .. Maybe when the emotions go away - you'll see everything differently. Not you first, not you last)