I divorced with my ex-husband about 23 years ago. Then he died from drugs.My marriage scared me too much. I avoid men all this time. My father died 15 years ago. So we lived without any men: my Mom, me and two my daughters. I remembered that wanted to go to monastery. Really! But I very criticized Christianity and like beautiful clothes. So I don't have any experience with conversation with men and stay naive. I don't know how I will look for the right man for me.