Dustin, stories with prostitutes are the last thing you should be talking about publicly. You may think this helps your cause, but anyone who reads this just cringed. You also just admitted (publicly) that you have major psychological issues that need to be dealt with, and I'd suggest addressing them before you let people into your life. Are you saying these things here because you're fishing for pity? Women here don't want basketcase projects, they want a reliable and stable man who will be a strong leader. This site is not group therapy, this is for people who have a specific goal, and have something to offer to get it. It sounds like you need a therapist, not a wife.