When they broke up, they were strangers

I just broke up with a Russian girlfriend, she is 43 years old, has a daughter, daughter with her, I was 39 years old, because these two years, we did not meet, because of the outbreak, my country closed the border, she also because of visa problems to China, we send messages every day, sometimes video, I will mail tea from China to her, sometimes book her flowers online, in recent months because of war, she found money more and more not easy, she will part-time some extra work, she want to raise her daughter, have a mortgage, her pressure is very big, her biggest dream is to come to China, She said she likes China. We have spoken less language in the last month, Greeting came out, Without a lot of talk about, She said the lover she met five years ago was coming to her to get back together, Because her lover had a wife, Her lover is Russian-Brazilian, Then his lover returned home to his wife, Tilting her off, And I asked me what I thought right now, She said that she did not want to be hurt again, She refused, She had a year of love behind her, I was also dumped by others, Two years ago, she said that she had had a short love affair, After a week with a man, I appreciate her honesty, I honestly kind of mind her feelings, Then I would slowly accept her past, After all, there was something that she could not predict. Finally in a few days ago, I put forward to break up, she did not say anything, also did not say the topic of retention, I put forward to break up in the morning, I regret in the afternoon, to apologize to her, send her flowers, of course, she refused to accept the flowers, I called the Courier to send the flowers at her door. I gave her a lot of information at that time, she did not answer, then I used WhatsApp.telgram to give her a video, she blocked me, and then I contacted her with wechat, she has not reply, but she has not block my wechat, I do not know what the reason is not to block my wechat? I tried the voice a few times, and she refused. In the next few days, I tried to leave her a message, email. She never made to reply. I tried to use the Internet phone, and her phone was turned off, and then I called a friend in Russia to call her, and her phone was still turned off. In fact, I just want her to say another word, if I give me another chance, I will come over again, if she already has a good man she likes, she can directly tell me, I can accept these, I will silently bless them, she has any financial difficulties, you can directly put forward to me, I will help her. These days I have been thinking about my own problems, trying to find their own mistakes, if there are two people have any conflict I can avoid in time, but, all this will not go. She once said that she would go to Belarus with her English teacher in November to do plastic surgery, because the price of plastic surgery in Russia is very high, because I am a plastic surgeon, and I was trying to get a visa for her. If she can come to China, I can give her plastic surgery to make her young and beautiful. I also think of a way to apply for next year's study visa. She once asked Russian agents, they could not apply for a visa to China. In the past two years, I have not had any contact with other women, and I have not betrayed her mentally and physically. I am a traditional man, and she said that she is also a traditional woman, and I have a lot in common with her. PS: Writing here, I can only wish her to meet a good man to her in the future, and not to be cheated by other men in the future. I will continue to look for my next love affair......